Fist Clenched Heart

you say the words i wanted to hear
4 years ago
you've changed
you've learned
you've grown
but in order to do that i had to let you go
i cannot be foolish enough to believe
you did this for me or us
you did it for you and your newfound freedom
you changed bc you knew you needed to
you learned bc i forced you to
you grew bc there was nothing else to do
but it wasnt for me... no
it was bc you thought you were going to use your new tools against me
that is until you saw me and once again
you changed
you told me you could not look back bc you were into someone new
and when that failed you
you learned
that i was never the person you made yourself think i was
it was you that made you unhappy
i was just the water that nurtured you
then you grew
in the direction far away from me bc my well went dry
so your roots grew in search of new water
and now that my i am full again
dont come back my way
i have a fist clenched heart
that stands in protest of people like you that feel my love
and trample all over it until i dont love myself anymore
so while you are comfortable for me
i cant loosen my grip
do i love you yes
but i know some love never dies
it was my undying love for you that opened my eyes
i now realize that while you and i may fit

we dont fit perfectly

you see there is still empty spaces within me 

i have changed, learned, and grown

apart from you 

©SoulBird