i wish you knew

I wish you knew

Open up my flesh and see

How every neuron in my body responds 

With your mere presence

I am quiet sometimes

The inaudible words floating in my mind

You dont want to hear

I want more and you want less

It is all very clear

Like the shadows behind my sunglasses

I wish you knew

That I hide my eyes from you 

Within them lies truth that has not been spoken

An honesty that cannot be concealed

I cant be open with you like that anymore

That is what got me here

Wanting more... Of you

I wish you knew  

Every morning when I wake

I think of you

Then my heart smiles for a second

Reality sits in and I realize 

I am the last thing on your mind

My heart shatters into a million pieces

Sharp shards of glass

I spend my day putting it back together

Somedays it hurts more than others

Every day ends with thoughts of laying in your arms

I wish you knew

that you made me whole

©SoulBird