Dear Love
Dear Love,
I am writing you today to let you know I am not afraid of you anymore. Someone told me with love comes pain. With that being said I have felt the deepest love there is. Learned to love myself through that pain because the people that said they did just continuously failed me. I realize now I cannot hold you accountable for what they did to me. It was not you who caused my heartache. I have blamed you for many years and I want to apologize that I lost faith in you. Now I feel like you have been hiding from me. Right when I thought you were mine, you left me. I was happy in you and all I could do was shower them in you. When I try to share the parts of you that I posses, my heart has been trampled. All I have ever wanted was for someone to share their parts of you with me, purely. Surround me in you just because I was I and they were they. Someday I will get you to stay. Someday you will be all that is important. All that I need and have ever needed was you. Yes, you come and you go but when will this be a long term relationship? I am ready to share you without fear of the pain having you caused me. When will you be enough? I walk through my days waiting on you to appear from around the corner and sweep me off my feet. When I am standing face to face with you, I look for an exit. It is just a reflex at this point. So many have used you against me to manipulate me into being who they wanted me to be in the name of you. Now that I can see you for who you are to me and not how you have been displayed by others, I can accept you. You are the most precious gift one can receive and I will continue to share my gift until it is shared back with me. You never failed me, but my faith in people have. Never expect someone to love you quite as well as you can love yourself. Lesson learned. One day love you are going to knock on my door and I will, without hesitation, let you in.
Patiently waiting,
SoulBird
©SOULBIRD
I am writing you today to let you know I am not afraid of you anymore. Someone told me with love comes pain. With that being said I have felt the deepest love there is. Learned to love myself through that pain because the people that said they did just continuously failed me. I realize now I cannot hold you accountable for what they did to me. It was not you who caused my heartache. I have blamed you for many years and I want to apologize that I lost faith in you. Now I feel like you have been hiding from me. Right when I thought you were mine, you left me. I was happy in you and all I could do was shower them in you. When I try to share the parts of you that I posses, my heart has been trampled. All I have ever wanted was for someone to share their parts of you with me, purely. Surround me in you just because I was I and they were they. Someday I will get you to stay. Someday you will be all that is important. All that I need and have ever needed was you. Yes, you come and you go but when will this be a long term relationship? I am ready to share you without fear of the pain having you caused me. When will you be enough? I walk through my days waiting on you to appear from around the corner and sweep me off my feet. When I am standing face to face with you, I look for an exit. It is just a reflex at this point. So many have used you against me to manipulate me into being who they wanted me to be in the name of you. Now that I can see you for who you are to me and not how you have been displayed by others, I can accept you. You are the most precious gift one can receive and I will continue to share my gift until it is shared back with me. You never failed me, but my faith in people have. Never expect someone to love you quite as well as you can love yourself. Lesson learned. One day love you are going to knock on my door and I will, without hesitation, let you in.
Patiently waiting,
SoulBird
©SOULBIRD
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