the broken ones

your words spit at me like acid
burning my flesh right off the bone
you melted my soul to stone
hardening from the inside out
i sit here now with a pile of regrets
drowning in puddles of tears
throughout the years i let you ravish me
you did with me what you wished
all because i wanted to be loved
you told me you did
this foolish heart of mine believed you
now when it comes to loving
i put one foot in and keep the other out
i blame you for this
punishing others because of what you did to me
they dont understand that i have been broken
and the broken ones need love too
but patience first
just when i thought i found my missing piece
the one i could lay out all my cards for
i took my time in making sure
i could trust her with the secrets of my soul
but like a broken vase glued back together
she could see the cracks and chips in my pieces
caused by you and many others
the flaws in my reconstruction

she left me holding my heart out to her
i thought our pieces fit perfectly together
i realize now that it was my heart being foolish
once again
to think we could start over again
i failed the test when i misread the question
i failed myself in attempts to guard my broken pieces
ashamed of all the gaps and holes i have been filling
with glue and concrete to hold myself together
like a turtle i hid in my shell
when i realized it was safe to come out
it was too late

©SOULBIRD