Beautifully Broken

i write continually to relieve the pain that being a woman has brought me. born into a body that i thought was my own and now i know that was an illusion. my whole life has been a lie. from birth i was told i was something i was not. a girl. a girl i was called but without alteration that was not the case. never quite belonging in any avenue i crossed all hope for me was lost. wandering through life looking for someone like me. giving up and creating my own path when i look behind me the only footprints there are my own. i am just looking for my home, somewhere where i belong.
searching for the truth in a web of lies even charlotte cant find it. how can i begin to define when this life given is not mine. i am just here. floating through each day the same as the last. ignoring the history of my past. while it didnt make me it surely did break me. I am Beautifully Broken the fire ball burning inside of me has scorched everything i touch.