loveless lover

before i knew love it was taken away
pure innocent love has never lived inside this soul of mine
emptiness manifested and i hated myself
and yet all the love in me i shared
taken then taken again and still no love given back
ive been waiting my whole life to be loved
no strings attached,
just love me
i am a loveless lover that will give all the love i have until i am bone dry
my heart is a desert
only my tears keep it beating
i continue to give what love is left in me
just hoping someone will love me back
easily discarded like a game of spades
i have been continuously tossed to the side
not worth an ounce of love
for what did i deserve to be a loveless lover
all you need is love so they say
each day i wake up and hope it will come my way
i have lived a life half full
void of the most basic human desire
love
a four letter word and an art left unperfected
how can i perfect it
do i really need it?
Is it even real or synthesized realism? who knows anymore i just know i live with my heart half beating just enough to keep me alive